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I just realized something....obviously from the title.
I should stop trying to draw like other people, and drawing pictures that frustrate me because they're either really hard to draw or take so long I dislike doing it.
I should just draw how I want to, without worrying about what people think.
I should just draw how I want to, without worrying about what people think.
My wolf and I were talking, and I'm thinking about spending my senior year living up north with my Aunt Jodi to be closer to him.
Nobody knows that I've been in love with him since I was a pup; nobody even thinks anything about the way I feel for him. I learned a few months ago that he's known for years, because he knows me better than anybody else does, even my own mother. When I asked him why he never brought it up to me, he said it was because he knew I'd come to him when I was ready.
He says when I'm 18 I can move in with him and I'll even have my own room, that made me happy, because I was even fine if all I got was a couch or a corner to myself. I brought up the concern that I don't even know how to pump gas, let alone handle finances. He just smiled and said that he'd be glad to teach me.
My dilemma:
The only thing that keeps me from transferring schools this year and moving up there to live with my aunt now is my friend Angel, and my "emotional mate" (as I call him) Brandon. Angel is my nongirlfriend-girlfriend, and Brandon is the guy I wanted and still (kinda) want to marry. Talking about marriage with Brandon, I probably would have married him if I hadn't listened to suicide threats and gone back with Matthew, but I'm getting off topic.
Angel told me that she'll visit, which means when I'm in senior year she'll move away to be with her fiance and I can live wherever. The only thing, then, keeping me to my maternal pack site is Brandon. I feel like I'd be abandoning him, but I'm not sure if staying here would be in my best interest either. I know all the guys here that I can, and none of them feel as right as my wolf.
I'm trying to think if I missed anything...if so I will add it later, or write another journal.
If any of y'all have questions of any sort, on any subject just comment below or leave a comment on my page and depending on the question and subject (etc) I'll either reply or I'll write a journal about the question.
I love you all.
Wow
Wow, it's been so long since I've been in DeviantArt.
I started crocheting, and am trying to get back into drawing as well. Because of that I moved and cleaned off my desk, effectively turning it into a craft space and managed to lose my sheet of paper full of my passwords.
It's snowing and cold outside, but Kane seems to love gazing at it as if he's on an alien planet.
9 Weeks, 1 Day Post
Wow..
It's been so long since I've been on.
My baby boy is absolute perfection.
I adore him to pieces.
He's over thirteen pounds,
twenty-two and a half inches.
He's gotten so large in just nine weeks.
But me.
I haven't had much time.
Home life has been rough.
But I have Kane.
I feel as if the world could be falling apart,
but as long as I have him it'll be alright.
I'll find a way.
I'm going to go back to school:
Get that accounting degree I used to talk about.
The only problem..
Full-time student, full-time mom and at Least part-time employee...
Where's Any time for me?
I don't require much time to myself,
only a few hours
Week 28
I went to the doctor's today for my weekly check-up.
He thinks I'll make it another week.
Meaning my body isn't quite ready to have a baby yet.
I feel conflicted on it.
I want this little human out...
But I also like silence and sleep...
I don't think I'll win this one. lol
Pyrography is going great!
I'm doing dragons and emblems for my husband...
The ones he want are so intricate and I'm just like
O.O
..okay...
I have no idea what he intends on doing with them though.
To be honest I don't know what I'm going to do with all this stuff.
It's not like I can just put each finished piece in a folder and set it on the bookshelf..
Devious Journal Entry
I swear, I had an idea for this journal
But as soon as the page loaded I lost it.
I'll just start by saying
Thank You
to everybody who's either sent me a llama or favorite'd my work.
Especially recently,
since I haven't really gone onto many people's profiles to tell them.
As many, most, of y'all know I started Pyrography.
My husband's allowing me to do it on our kitchen table rather than the woodshop in the backyard.
This way we're still kinda hangin' out,
AND
so I'm not outside all night while he's at work.
I have a picture of my late kitty Chester at my "work station".
I've taken to calling him my Pyro-Buddy.
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story of my life on the art thing. it's why my style changes a lot. it's difficult to establish your own style but you do get there eventually lol